From The Inside Out
Andrew Hill: Playing inside/out
Most of us who blog mean well, just as most activists who try to fight the good fight – mean well.
However, in my limited experience, people who are do-gooders, or have an agenda, often haven’t done much – if any -inner work. The road less traveled ain’t a road at all – it’s US! It appears that some use (consciously or unconsciously) their outer work to mask inner deficiencies. I’ve seen and/or experienced people who are extremely intelligent, conscious and savvy in many ways…and yet, because they haven’t healed or even acknowledged their “issues,” use them as a bludgeon against the very people they are trying to “help.”
Something is wrong when people fail to, first, heal themselves (which truly is a lifelong process), check themselves constantly, see the disease of racism/white supremacy in themselves and work on it. You can’t help, when you don’t get help, when you haven’t dealt with your trunk full of baggage. Lord knows, we need lots of help and all of us should assume, if we are wise, that we have a lot of work to do. ALL OF US. Not some, all.
No philosophy, belief system or book can counter what has been done to us. We need THERAPY!! If we don’t take our spiritual and emotional healing seriously, we will continue to be crabs in the barrel, continue to act like Benedict Arnold’s all the while claiming to be race warriors, continue to become defacto Willie and Wilhemina Lynches.
Whenever I try to live up to Mos Def’s powerful words: “Speech is my hammer bang the world into shape, now let it fall,” I need to bring the hammer of truth down on myself, put the skillet of self-examination on the front burner. If I’m not willing to do that, then I ain’t growing and if I’m not growing, what good am I to anyone else?